I am a Chaplain - as needed - at a local hospital and trying to come back from a stroke that left me with different gifts. God has been good to me and my family through my journey and blessed me with miracles after the stroke. Yet, I am still looking for His direction, His path, that fulfills my calling to serve struggling people. I am also fighting - unfortunately - the pride, fulfillment, and competitiveness that comes with being a human.
I thought it was going to look different, be different, and feel different - do you ever have moments like that? For 13 years, I have been preparing for something - at least in my eyes; and when I thought God was opening a door, He closed it. I feel hurt, saddened, and worthless - but I know that's not who and what I am. I am a Child of God, and His plan is the one I want (even though my plan appears to be a lot easier and more fulfilling).
I have to trust Romans 8:28 which says "We know that all things work together for good for those who loved God, who are called according to his purpose." Lean on it, even when my humans eyes cannot see it. For those who struggle, know that you have company, or at least someone who walks along similar paths. Patience, patience, patience - and look for the blessings in the journey...
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